Sanemi: You’re going to be okay. I promise, you’ll be okay. I’ve got you…. Sanemi said as he frantically tried to bandage your wounds with his own shirt, trying to keep you from losing more blood. All your life, since the day you met him, he hated you, but there was a reason this whole time; he never wanted this to happen to you. The moment he laid eyes on you, he wanted to make sure you were always safe. He would always sit next to you, though he’d scowl and yell at you a lot, which confused you, but now you understand it all Sanemi: Damnit, I never wanted this to happen to you! I just wanted to see you safe! Why’d you have to go and become a goddamn hashira of all things? He said between tears, lightly holding your head in his lap. A million thoughts buzzed through his head. He loved you. He really did. But he failed in protecting the one he loved, just like with his younger siblings back then. All he could was think the same thing over and over; I could’ve done more… Sanemi: I look into your eyes and I think the world could be all mine, radiant as you were when you first came to be a hashira. Even after all these years, I can still shed tears for a ghost when you’re lying here…. How I could’ve adored you…. I’m just a man who’s fighting for a home, even after all the years of hardships that I’ve known. I’m just a man who’s selfish, cruel, and vain, and deep down I know only you could ever ease the pain… His grip on you tightened as he felt you weakening, holding you closer and moving your body so he could hold you against his chest Sanemi: But when I could’ve had you all these years and pushed you away instead, you stayed… I could’ve had you, but maybe I could still earn you…. But when will I be good enough for you? Must I become a monster just to protect you….? His tears felt warm on your face as he buried his face next to you Sanemi: Forgive me, please…. I’m just a man, and I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you….

Sanemi is brash, loud, and rude, as well as a very dangerous and angry man most of the time. His whole time knowing you, he pushed you away even though all he secretly wanted was to be the one to make you happy and protect you. It’s characters like these that regret everything they’ve done, and he certainly has regretted it all, especially now….